Just realize that I barely know and understand myself. As when everybody is doing things they like and enjoy, there is a little girl doubts and wonders, is this what she really wanted? I have been settled down and stagnant for some time. That is why i feel so guilty.
Everybody surrounding is moving forward so fast, leaving me at the back. I should not be blaming others, may be I am not working hard enough. I have been just too comfortable in this moment.
In fact I am enjoying the life now, or not? I forgot since when I stop challenging myself to aim for the best. Schooling time PMR and SPM I aimed for strike As and I achived it.
Now that I have started to work, everybody has options in leading the life. For me I hope for more learning opportunity to get more experience. I have to be clear of this : work hard when being young, then easy when growing old. It never works the other way.
can't believe that it's another friday.
Cheers,
Jessy
Friday, November 25, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Miserable Memory
I have sore thigh and butt after jogging which I think quite normal for me, yet I am quite worried about my chronic low back pain. It is actually associated to an innocent history of fall few years back. I would not say it was an accident, because it was planned so.
I was form three and I was having my year-end holiday, I had to go back to school for counselling meeting. After the meeting, I was supposed to go down from first floor of the school and go home. But I found that all gates were locked, and I could not find the school guard. I ended up walking and strolling around classes to classes for about 30minutes, it was nobody there except my teachers who are busy on projects in counselling room. Then the frustration came up to my mind, ‘What should I do and how long should I wait to see the guard?’ I walked to the corridor and glanced down, there was nobody just a field of bushes and it is about 3 meters height. I remember I studied about inertia in the year; inertia is the impact of force when an object falls in particular surface, speed and height. To reduce the impact of force, the surface should be soft and it should not be too high no doubt. Suddenly, a naughty idea came up to mind. ‘Why don’t we do an experiment?’ For your information, I like experimenting since I was standard three, I actually rear caterpillar since he was a baby, turn to lava and transformed to a beautiful butterfly. (It was out of my mummy knowledge)
I did not remember how I could have the gut, the next second I know I landed with my buttock on bushes. For few minutes it was silent, and I could not move. I did not even shout. It was not painful, just the impact on my pelvic bone, if my bone was not strong, I could have ended up with fracture and cracked pelvic bone. I felt like crying and worried, because for few minutes I did not seem to have strength to stand up. I finally forced myself to stand up and even walked back home without telling anybody. (scared to be scolded by my mummy)
The pain and discomfort feeling persists there for easily a week before I could really walk properly. Credits go to my routine of having dairy milk every day to protect my bone from broken. But I get the consequence after few years later, which is currently a little work out can cause low back pain. I am now not as daring as last time because I have seen many cases. Being immature can harm and ruin your life. I have already experienced on my own body. I learned from it.
Sentence of the day,
Think twice before an action.
Love,
Jessy
I was form three and I was having my year-end holiday, I had to go back to school for counselling meeting. After the meeting, I was supposed to go down from first floor of the school and go home. But I found that all gates were locked, and I could not find the school guard. I ended up walking and strolling around classes to classes for about 30minutes, it was nobody there except my teachers who are busy on projects in counselling room. Then the frustration came up to my mind, ‘What should I do and how long should I wait to see the guard?’ I walked to the corridor and glanced down, there was nobody just a field of bushes and it is about 3 meters height. I remember I studied about inertia in the year; inertia is the impact of force when an object falls in particular surface, speed and height. To reduce the impact of force, the surface should be soft and it should not be too high no doubt. Suddenly, a naughty idea came up to mind. ‘Why don’t we do an experiment?’ For your information, I like experimenting since I was standard three, I actually rear caterpillar since he was a baby, turn to lava and transformed to a beautiful butterfly. (It was out of my mummy knowledge)
I did not remember how I could have the gut, the next second I know I landed with my buttock on bushes. For few minutes it was silent, and I could not move. I did not even shout. It was not painful, just the impact on my pelvic bone, if my bone was not strong, I could have ended up with fracture and cracked pelvic bone. I felt like crying and worried, because for few minutes I did not seem to have strength to stand up. I finally forced myself to stand up and even walked back home without telling anybody. (scared to be scolded by my mummy)
The pain and discomfort feeling persists there for easily a week before I could really walk properly. Credits go to my routine of having dairy milk every day to protect my bone from broken. But I get the consequence after few years later, which is currently a little work out can cause low back pain. I am now not as daring as last time because I have seen many cases. Being immature can harm and ruin your life. I have already experienced on my own body. I learned from it.
Sentence of the day,
Think twice before an action.
Love,
Jessy
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Exercise or not
Day by day I am judging and enhancing myself. Am I fit enough to be a physiotherapist? As we all know that a physiotherapist is always involved in musculoskeletal, chest, neurological and education. We are responsible in creating awareness for public the importance of exercises as well. Now the questions are, how would we motivate people to exercise without the therapist having a regular exercise routine? It is definitely not convincing enough when an obesity guy educates people about the importance of exercise. No matter theory and explanations given are so fantastic and impressing, it will ultimately go back to the question that most of people would like to ask (or in the heart), ‘so do you do so?’ People always believe in experiences. It is no doubt.
While others are all looking for jobs which they find comfortable with so that the job nature suits them well, I am actually trying to suit myself in what I am always doing. No doubt my job requires me to be a little active (or as long as not too weak), I am regularly working out my stamina. I am glad that I have been cycling to work since first day I started to work. I kept on complaining that it is so inconvenience without a car. But it actually pushes me to exercise at least 30 minutes a day. And I find my gluteus max has been toned up. ^^ Plus I am sometimes playing badminton twice a week, once with working staff and another with my high school friends.
Exercise does not only build up your stamina and bring healthier lifestyle, it could also improve the bond among working staffs and friends. I was just back from jogging with my working staff, they have been so funny despite It was kinda odd because I was the only girl among boys. It’s gonna be 9pm and I’m gonna on my skype to have a webcam dating. Hopefully the weather can be a little cooler now. I’m sweating now.
While others are all looking for jobs which they find comfortable with so that the job nature suits them well, I am actually trying to suit myself in what I am always doing. No doubt my job requires me to be a little active (or as long as not too weak), I am regularly working out my stamina. I am glad that I have been cycling to work since first day I started to work. I kept on complaining that it is so inconvenience without a car. But it actually pushes me to exercise at least 30 minutes a day. And I find my gluteus max has been toned up. ^^ Plus I am sometimes playing badminton twice a week, once with working staff and another with my high school friends.
Exercise does not only build up your stamina and bring healthier lifestyle, it could also improve the bond among working staffs and friends. I was just back from jogging with my working staff, they have been so funny despite It was kinda odd because I was the only girl among boys. It’s gonna be 9pm and I’m gonna on my skype to have a webcam dating. Hopefully the weather can be a little cooler now. I’m sweating now.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Another day
It’s not something that I used to do, writing a blog immediately followed by another. It is the second day that you have left to Kuwait. I will definitely keep my word to write everyday here to update you what have I been doing. I am counting down the days till you return to me, your return would be very special to me and to you as well. Because it is our anniversary!! Happy advanced anniversary baby. I wouldn’t believe it has been just a month to a year we are together, the way we match each other in term of opinions and decision making just make me feel like we have been together easily for years.
I had a great night yesterday after hearing from you. After the 11 hours waiting and passing time blindly, I was so excited to see your status turned green at about 9.30pm here. All the boredom and loneliness just disappeared like an ash when I was able to see you. Credits go to the advanced technology right now, it really rescue those desperate girls who miss their boys so much. ;)
Your absence makes me realize loads. I used to just accept things given to me too granted. When I have decisions to make, you are the one I always look for; When I am too stressful, you always lend me shoulder to lean on; When I am starving, you are my source of energy; When I had a great day, you are the first one I would always like to share to. You have changed me to a person that is not afraid of expressing deep in the heart. It has been so tiring to pleasure me sometimes. Thanks a lot my babe.
Love,
Jessy
p/s: tomorrow there is just one/two patients in dept. It would be another boring day ==
I had a great night yesterday after hearing from you. After the 11 hours waiting and passing time blindly, I was so excited to see your status turned green at about 9.30pm here. All the boredom and loneliness just disappeared like an ash when I was able to see you. Credits go to the advanced technology right now, it really rescue those desperate girls who miss their boys so much. ;)
Your absence makes me realize loads. I used to just accept things given to me too granted. When I have decisions to make, you are the one I always look for; When I am too stressful, you always lend me shoulder to lean on; When I am starving, you are my source of energy; When I had a great day, you are the first one I would always like to share to. You have changed me to a person that is not afraid of expressing deep in the heart. It has been so tiring to pleasure me sometimes. Thanks a lot my babe.
Love,
Jessy
p/s: tomorrow there is just one/two patients in dept. It would be another boring day ==
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Apart
A month of time has gone so unconsciously. Never think this will happen so quick that the next second, you've already boarded on plane... I wish i could have more time spent with you helping you to pack luggage and recheck what have been left out. But you are just too sweet that bringing me out instead of packing. I am so glad what you have done to me baby. And i feel so proud that you are gonna be travelling all alone again to the country which most of us so unfamiliar with. Baby i've learned loads from you. i could never imagine could i manage and go through all these problems if i were you. You are always so cautious and committed to work. I would never be this calm and rational if i face a challenge like this.
Serious man always the most attracting and seducing. haha.. Can't believe the word came from me is it? I used to think that being serious to something need to have a borderline, not too much. Being too serious friends will go away from you. And therefore i'm now gradually changing myself, other than work and work, i'm looking in to the beauty of world and sincere friendships i have in my life. And so there we are a not-so-serious little girl exists. I need to learn from you my man, being more cautious and dedicated in work. In the meantime, you need to also step out from seriousness and reality, enjoy and appreciate every single little beuty of the world. kay? for example, forget the world after a sip of oreos and cream drink!! yum yum !!
Months of being so attached to each other has caused me a big challenge knowing you will be thousand of miles apart for week. I smile to you and reassure you i'm gonna be alright. Yet it's so ashamed that i wouldn't know how to spend for a day without you now. I sound so pathetic isn't it. But that's what love is. Nobody would hope to be fallen apart with the love one. Would you? I hope the first day will go well and no hairwire.. pray to have a good sleep these days !! cheer for Jessy Choo being superwoman!! yeah!!
love,
Jessy
Monday, April 4, 2011
Tied up ==
It's been 9 months working, nothing is really great and impressing me these months working in this newly established hospital. There are pros and cons working in a newly established workplace, pros are where you could set your rules and regulations yourselves, everybody is new to the organization and trying to adapt to the new management no matter the higher position to the General Manager and the lower ones to the cleaners.
The cons are very much lesser exposure and learning opportunity in this workplace compared to the bigger organization. Can you imagine i could actually surf internet and check on my emails during working hours? I know it's very sad. I feel sad to myself, too.. I am uncertain that whether the low revenue currently is because of the employee's quality of work, too many options to choose nearby, or is everybody healthy and dun't have to come to us? As we know if hospital has less people means good for population where people are healthy, thus doesn't have to seek for treatment, but if it's still that crowded in other hospitals, ours one is actually in a very dangerous state in business point of view. As an ordinary medical staff i'm supposed to be concerned merely on treating patients when there are clients. But i'm worried now. This month average number of patients are not more than 10. What's wrong?
It's good to be a little free in the morning as I gotta keep some adenaline booster for the nights. Yeah, my boyfie and I have started doing housecall. This patient is staying in a huge bangalow, yes, it's really huge with swimming pool and aquarium in the house compound. We need a lot of energy to see this uncle cause he is quite elderly. I'm enjoying doing housecalls as you could arrange your own time and when you work on your own, you feel needed.
There are so much disturbance living in an area where public transport is so not reachable. I had to call up a cab to send me to the Komuter station. There is hardly buses and cabs in Kota Kemuning area. I need a car badly. I would have gotten a white Perodua Myvi last year if possible. But i wasn't able to due to some financial crisis. Now i'm saving my downpayment. and also worried whether my current monthly pay sufficient for living with feeding my car in the future. Why isn't there a car that can run with water?! I'm certainly dreaming now..
It's monday night and i'll be working 8am - 5pm tomorrow and gonna meet the uncle at night. good night ;)
Love,
Jessy
Friday, March 18, 2011
Extreme Adventures
This was nearly two months ago, got a call from Faten regarding skytrex in Shah Alam. Before i agreed to join, i searched internet about Skytrex Adventure, it's so my thing.. Flying fox, tandem walking on the rope and odd surfaces in the air. Looking at these favourites that i've ever only tried in NS camp few years back, i said yes to the trip. 
There're more pictures taken, in the air.. for you who don't really know me, i like adventures and i like sharing my thrilling experience, that's why i've really taken pictures on every stages i went through, feel free to visit my facebook to see all the pictures.
That was a good exercises where everybody was craving for Chili's as usual thereafter the training finished. But sadly Chili's was full house, so they decided to head to Italianese. We really had a good time and i found they are really funny people and good friends to be with. Can't wait to go for the next getaway with them. The next will be paint ball in Bukit Jalil!!
End with my own camwhoring photo with harness. (;
There're more pictures taken, in the air.. for you who don't really know me, i like adventures and i like sharing my thrilling experience, that's why i've really taken pictures on every stages i went through, feel free to visit my facebook to see all the pictures. 
There were around 10 of us, the rest that are not in the picture have left ahead of us. We came in a group, attended a nearly 15mins training on harness application, as for all the stations we have to apply our harness ourselves eventhough there are skytrex staffs at selected stations. This is a challenge to those who are afraid of height and those who doesn't have stamina. This is like after doing hiking of few mountains. Must go again one day!!
Few weeks later after the skytrex, the gleneagle gang decided to go for wall climbing in One Utama, this will be my first ever time to try on wall climbing. For beginner we have to go through basic wall course which cost us RM128 to be independent climber. The harness application was nothing challenging since alvin and I have already trained to do so. This is a good teamwork activity where climber and belayer have to trust each other and they are not allowed to be distracted. This is life threatening. For me i feel it's more challenging to become belayer because belayer takes the responsibility to save the climber if emergency happens.
That was a good exercises where everybody was craving for Chili's as usual thereafter the training finished. But sadly Chili's was full house, so they decided to head to Italianese. We really had a good time and i found they are really funny people and good friends to be with. Can't wait to go for the next getaway with them. The next will be paint ball in Bukit Jalil!! End with my own camwhoring photo with harness. (; Friday, January 14, 2011
New Year 2011
It's been a while since the last post, frankly i almost forget about this blog. However, i push myself today to just update this for the new year.
It's 2011, i'm 22 years old, i can't believe that time could just fly away like that. What is my wish for the new year? I wish everybody around me healthy and happy always. Hopefully i'll get what i planned for this year.
Thanks for my lovely baby who always take good care of me, no matter how busy he is with work, he'll still try his best to come meeting me and bring me for dinner. I've been staying away from home for several years, it made me more independent in some ways. However there're time when i feel lonely and helpless, people always seek help from home, but i try not to, i'm used to settle things my own way, and ended up to be what people used to call 'stubborn'. Baby is the one i look for when i have problems, he always bring me happiness, warmness and love. Thanks for being so lovely and I L Y bee. ;)
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