Big big girl

I'm surviving the adventure, it is way easier to pass the time now compared to the two times before when my baby was away. That does not mean i don't miss him as much as I did. This is so wrong. I miss him like crazy, i swear.

I begin to start loving and accepting who and how I am. Despite of hating my inherited weakness and things I do not have, I start to appreciate things that I am having. now. Being away from home started from college makes me learn. Learn to be independent, to be responsible, and to be discipline.

I was a spoilt child where i had maid to take care of every single things since small. Frankly I did not know how to wash a shoe or even to switch on the stove untill I began to stay away from home. What i knew to do was to stay in my father's former shop to help. or damage ;))

if anyone plans to hire a maid to help raising up children. please, for the sake of your kids, think twice. Do not leave your children to anybody and expect they will get the best guidance despite you, the parents being the role model.

I have the best mummy and daddy in the world that have raised me up to a better person. Now that I have grown up, I am gonna spoil them as much as possible. :))

Love you papa mama,

Jessy

Be strong Girl

This is not the first time anymore, the third time that he is representing Malaysia to go abroad. First time was referee camp 2010 in Korea, second was as a linesman in Asian game 2011 in Kuwait and third is as a registered referee progressing in Dehdradun, India.

How would I miss the important point . He - my lovely Baby that does not mean anything but everything to me.

I did not send him to airport the first and second trip. Shall I make it clear, I did not want to because I was scared that I would spoil the atmosphere that I would burst into crying aloud. I was wrong, it was way more sad sitting alone knowing he was gonna board the plane by the time without sending him a good bye kisses and hugs.

So this time i have decided, must at least give him a flying kiss before he cross the boarding gate. So as the day of going to airport comes, I was indeed moody (everybody said so). I followed his parents and sisters to go to KLIA at about 3pm. I was crazy playing with the sisters in the airport to at least escape the sadness - it does relieve a little.

Just when the check-ins have been settled, Hugs given to both parents and sisters and I looked on him regardless surroudings. And then he came hugging me very tightly and i did so. I felt the warm and secure that i always get it from him. But at this moment of time, this is priceless.

First day of adventure has started -total of 12 days. Suprisingly my memory works really well that I remember everything that he said and mentioned to me in the airport.
1) Remember must eat properly ya
2) Sleep well ya
3) Keep yourself occupied ya
4) Can not cry alone ya

I think i'm pretty sure i can achive these, as long as you come back safely :)

Loads of love,

Jessy