What a life@@

I'm tired..really tired, i can't understand why there're people enjoying so much in what they're doing right now. I would say, that's human life, when we were young we were the puppets of rules and regulations no matter from family or school. Now as we grow up as an adult, we are stil sticked with the workshop's regulation and government regulation.

I used to be an obedient to all the rules and regulations attached to me. No matter what the reason the regulation for and who was the one set the rules. No matter set by government, school, family, bond company, boyfriend or myself. I used to stick with it, I used to be a very very very good and innocent girl.

Now that i already almost 20 years old, i'm matured enough to have my own opinon, why should i obey the rules and regulations that i found is useless? I have alot of comment on the recent hot issue about maximum SPM subjects taken. Now government seems to restrict the numbles of subject to 10 and i feel it's really not fair to students. Why are they stil treating secondary school children like puppets? They have their own mind and decision to make.

They are independent enough to choose subjects they wanna take, it's proved by the incredible SPM results came out the past few years. I don't know what made them suddenly come up the issue to restrict the numble of subjects but it really causing trouble for students those who wanna do both science and account together in order to have more options in future.

I myself took 11 subjects including bahasa cina, if they restrict numble of subjects to 10, there will be big chances that chinese students are taking additional maths or accountancy instead of taking bahasa cina. It's not fair for chinese students.

Among the regulations, personal principles are the toughest to follow and obey. When the hopes and demands we are giving for ownself are too high, it will actually causing hectic and stressful life for ownself. For girls we usually think of having a good future and loving family. For guys they will most probably think of earning more money and power of family.

I sometimes feel jealous on friends who give up on having good future but chose to have loving family earlier. They are brave to choose their life. And i think i'm coward..or maybe i'm bit greedy, i wanna have both good future and loving family. i'm also a bit ego to have chosen to be better than others. That's where the stress came from, to have both good future-occupation and loving family is not an easy stuff.

My friends comment on me that my personality doen't suit my looking. My personality shows i'm a pure superwoman but my charbby face shows i'm a 100% housewife type.. do you all think so?