Final posting

I have just finished 6 weeks posting in the government welfare home-Rumah Ehsan in KKB. Now we have started our 6 weeks time journey in Hospital KKB. This is my first week in Hospital. i started missing the fellow patients in rumah ehsan so so much. Thousands of sincere smiling faces are spinning in my head now. they are so simple and their only entertainment there is chit chatting.

They are those disabled child tat has been abandoned since young, disabled adults who has no one to take care of and the old parents who are left der by own children. How sad is tat.. and where has the love gone.. there's a malay sentence saying tat a mother can raise up ten children, but the ten children cannot take care of the mother..This would bring shame to those children who don't wanna take care of parents when they are old.

Seeing these pts who has to be so determined in carrying out daily living activities, from the pt with paralysed half body due to stroke to the most severe paralysed of lower body due to spinal cord injury, i am feeling sad and at the same time i am inspired. those with paralysed lower body instead of depending on others, they train their upper body to survive- transfering, putting on cloths, bathing and toileting. This tells us tat one wil always get wat they hope for if v keep working hard and never giv it up so easily. Below are some smiles:

Ai Yun*Korean drama super fan & Mak cik Rokiah*pure talent in anyaman

Kah Piew*miss ur voice :)

Ah Poon*hopefully u're stil doin exercises tat i taught.

Uncle 08*cz he has 08 tatoo on the chest

hav a nice day everyone^^

Holiday or Jail??

Hai there..today is the last day of 2009 and i've been in sem break for nearly two weeks. There's one more week to go for the beginning of my last semester of physio course. We're gonna say goodbye to our lovely college soon and greet the coming hospital or medical centers tat we're gonna work in..

What would i say in the last day of 2009? i'd like to say goodbye to 2009 and welcome 2010. New year is gonna have new mission, new thinking, new environment and too new Calendar..My wish for 2010 might be as simple as just stay happy^^I wish everybody happy new year and enjoy the very last day of 2009, because time is never reverse.

To start my topic, i'd like to clarify my situation now, i'm beginning to hate long holiday, it's just a jail to me..it's just a suprise that i'd say tat b'coz i was the one like to have longer holiday since we've never had holiday that longer than 2 weeks. now that we got a week more to enjoy.. what i feel is what should i do in the another week?? oh gosh...

it's not like i didn't enjoy my holiday, i was enjoying straight after my exams finished on 17th Dec. We crazy friends as usual straight go to karaoke at Red Box in The Curve with our uniforms~~we should have asked for pay cz we are promoting our college, kiki... And you guys have no idea how weird the ppl watching us when we enter the shopping complex.

19th Dec- that was my very first time too to watch MIHF ( Malaysian Ice Hockey Federation) game. That day was the final 3 division games. I was allowed to enter the rink that is supposed to open for only players and staff, ha.. Thanks to the man that try to find himself on ice. i couln't help to snap and record the games at where i stand. And i found it's not easy to be good in tat sport as you have to be both fast and skillful in ice skating and hockey. the combination of ice skate and hockey, the name ice hockey implies that too. I miss ice skating, the last time i skated was during the Christmas 2008 if i'm not mistaken..

i had a wonderful trip in Penang on 22th to 24th December with all the jokers. that was my first time being in Penang and we had alot of fun and jokes. i got no regrets that i chose to go Penang instead of following parents to Aus, playing with friends are somehow different than travelling with parents and relatives. Thanks alot to our pro camera man- Yuen , safety first driver- Skeith and also the pityful panda- Shirley. ps: make sure you guys never have snoring for the next trip or there's victims suffering..haha~~

Following are some pics taken in Penang~let the pics become the story teller~~

Taken at Penang Hill, i was the only one didn't wear santa hat~~

Yuen~big brother

Taken with Skeith before entering the cable car~

With sweety shirley b4 entering butterfly farm~

In the butterfly farm~

trying to kite higher and higher~

One of the famous temples in Penang~

Pls take note, it's not suitable to swim~

In the Tropical spice garden with shirley~

Saint George Church~

Khoo Kong Si Temple~

Back to KL Christmas celebration in San Francisco~

From 28th onwards till today i was staying at home as a baby sitter. What i do when they sleeping? i'd just hook with laptop or some movies. and of course i took nap as long as possible that i've never had during training and class. Today supposed to have a so call count down with the jokers, but finally a call that saying it's cancelled. so i can only just count down myself in my dreamland tonight as usual then~~ 10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1- HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

'No matter'

Doesn't matter whom you are with

Doesn't matter where you are going

Don't you know i'm still waiting here for you

And pray for you

In the sunny days, Sun will light you day

In the windy days, Wind will lead you way

I have to say, you're my treasure moments

Never gonna walk away

In the rainy days, rains will share my tears

In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain

Just go your way and leave things all behind

Spread your wings and fly away

I'm pretending you're mine

I'm wishing you'll be fine

The moments we share never die

You've made a difference to my life

And let me realize

The feeling i've got deep inside

人生。。。。

生命中

不断地有人离开或进入

于是，看见的，看不见了

记住的，遗忘了

生命中

不断地有得到和失落

于是，看不见的，看见了

遗忘的，记住了

然而

看不见的

是不是就等于不存在

记住的

是不是永远不会消失?

Future??

Can anybody predict future?I wish i could, if i could predict future, i dun have to worry so much what if i made wrong decision. Someone has told me that if there is really a person that can predict future, it can be a sad story for him. I ask 'WHY?' He said 'Our future depends on our decision' I accept what he said, its totally correct. It is so sad if our future fixed and we are just following the flow.

I wonder how my future will be, initially i expect my future to be in the brightest ever than what i can expect. What i meant the brightest is i wish everyone will recognise me in future no matter from my career or from other areas. I love singing, once a time i follow singing class and have been singing on the competition stage, but then due to some factors i stopped. now once in a while i will be singing at home, haha..

Now i feel it does not matter whether how bright is my future, i just wish i can enjoy every single seconds of my life. I will try every things that i wish to. I don't allow myself regret on what i miss. So i will treasure on every single learning opportunities. On 14th Nov 2009, i was the Master of ceremony in my primary school. It was really great that i could get the experience on the stage again.

was doing the last preparation on the way to the venue

they were singing NEGARAKU..weren't they cute?

I don't care how my future will be, i just wanna treasure what im having now. Good to have my lovely family, my lovely friends and my classmates being with me at the sadness and happiness. Thanks to them that i could become tough and never give up in coping problems. I am Big Big Girl now.

Secrets in my deepest heart~~

SECRET 1: It has been 2 weeks training in HKL, today we had a jamuan for hari raya, it doesn't look like hari raya celebration, it looks more like datin's big day. The first thing of every guests do after entering physio department was hugging her and many sarcastic words that im not really used to hear it.

SECRET 2: There's a therapist who is very famous in our college, he's rarely talking with students, but being very friendly and nice to other stuffs. And god bless me i had chance to follow him this week. although i don't really agree with wat he corrected me, but i understand the reason he is strict to students. i tried to practice wat has he taught me and fully get used to that way. Once on wednesday when i finished treating patient, he came and talked with me. Seriously i was shocked that he was so friendly to me all of the sudden. Actually he wanted me to warn my partner for tis posting-Shantini about the sequences of giving treatments. I was stunt and just said yes yes, until he said he pass me for the practical skills. my heart was flying up high, at least my hard work was not wasted.

SECRET 3: Love-wat's love?love is a noun and can be a verb. 'I love you' is the 3 words that might steal a girl's heart, it seems couples now will repeat this 3 words at least twice a day, early morning and at night before sleep. For me, 'I love you' is really easily to be said, but it is hardly to be felt. Action is always more important than words n explainations. Girls always like to be loved, but they don't realise who is actually their Mr Right. Same goes to me myself. Im now exploring in a strange place of my heart that i never been. How long i should take for the tour? i hope i could discover my strange place of my heart as fast as possible.

SECRET 4: I seem to be a tough girl, but i am weak in some way. I actually hate to be alone, i need bunch of friends to talk to. When i have difficulties, i will have someone to talk and share, i can't keep with myself, i will die with loneliness with problems spinning in my head. These days i had dreams about someone i miss. I still not able to let go. That is my weakness, when i get in to a relation, i would put whole soul and heart on it. But i actually feel glad that i had someone to think of so far. It's a recreation for the busy life im having now.

HKL Life~~

Sorry im not a good blogger..today is mooncake festival,im staying at home had a *great* family day,yeah,in fact only few of us staying at home, my eldest sister went out early morning, and brother went off after work, feeling jealose that i got no plan for today but staying at home..

v got pizza hut and kfc for dinner instead of mooncakes, ahah.. But my two sisters were so *smart* that bot not enough for our big appetite, look at our body size la,everyone must eat alot ma,haha..like usual,singing while eating..really not good for digestion,but wat to do,i feel happy with tat...haha..

my hkl life is really damn sucks.. waking up at 5 and gotta sleep at 10 or else the next day will be struggling. i never had such a good life style since i started secondary school. now only weekend i can do my stuff, checking mails, watching tv, fb, and blogging. working days really won have free time, all time spent on the documentation works,in hkl v got 3 books to finish, 1)patient record 2) reflective diary 3) everything book , everyday i have to get at least 6 cases to write in patient record and pass up everyday. reflective diary is wat hav i learned in the day and gotta pass up on every thursday. everything book is watever book. So tat's so clear why v have no free time when posting in hkl.

4 SEPTEMBER 2009 i lost something. something tat i really loved,concerned,cared, and i dare to say tat was one part of me. my mood changes becoz of it. my personality changes becoz of it. my environment oso changes becoz of it. basically my life changes becoz of its existence. But now i lost it, it no longer b with me now, now tat its abscent changes my mood, my personality, my environment. It was my decision, i decided to lose it coz i miss my previous everything. i was looking forward to become the previous me.. Now i got the previous me, but i dun seem i got wat i expected. FREEDOM? is tat wat i need, or was tat coz of EGO?

Wish everybody got a great happy mooncake festival day~~